It Doesn't Seem to Get Easier With Time
Today's my first official day alone in Ireland. To be brutally honest, it hasn't been great. I've cried more than not and have questioned why I decided to do this time and time again. I don't feel brave enough, I don't feel ready, I don't feel like I know what I'm doing at all. I feel alone in a foreign country where they don't have my favorite snacks or the bread that I eat or boxed mac and cheese.
This is my third "Day 1" after moving away from home, and I don't remember the first two being so difficult. I'm sure they were in their own right, but the experiences I had in those places turned out so well and I loved them so much that I must have forgotten how bad they hurt at the time. And because of that, I know this will pass. It will take time, but this too will pass.
I watched a movie, practiced a bit, and tried the Dublin Bus system for the first time today, so I'll count today as a win. Even though I'm sad, even though I'm scared, I'm trying my best to have faith that this will be the adventure that I dreamed of. Until then, I'll be gentle with myself and try my best to find the goodness in the world.
Here's to Day 1.
Hello Bernadette , It’s Michele from Dr Krauss’ office. I was so excited when I heard you were going to blog about your year in Ireland.( I’m FB friends with your sweet mom)
Anyways, I’ve always loved all things Irish and so am going to live vicariously through your year in seeing Ireland. I’m sure everything is overwhelming right now, but prayers each day will get a little easier and you will soon find joy in this journey you have undertaken. Hangs in there!- Michele ❤️🙂☘️
Thank you all so much for your love and support! I'm finding a groove and have started to explore a bit more. Day 1s are always hard but I'm so lucky to have you all 🤍
Hang in there Love! Give yourself some time to adjust and meet new people. You are a beautiful person and musician! You have an army of loved ones and friends who are rooting for you! Take one day at a time and I think you will realize this opportunity is a once in a lifetime one. Today was rough leaving you but never underestimate our love for you!!!! Love from home........Mom
We are thinking of you Bernadette, and sending you warm wishes! Your passion for music will soothe your soul as you adjust to new and very different surroundings! Your experience will further shape you as a musician and leaving a wonderful impact on you. Take a deep breath….you’ve got this!! The kids send their hellos! They miss you already and added a world clock for Ireland to their phones so they know what time it is in your day!! Hugs!!
I know the love and lure of Ireland’s music and magic will have you feeling better in no time! You are going to have the experience that so many dream of! So proud of you, Bernadette! ❤️